I am a Dreamer
I had always been fascinated by dreams and astral travel. When I was 20 I had my first out of body experience. It was brief but it was a taste of a whole new world of exploration. I would struggle to achieve consistent lucid dreaming for my twenties and into my early thirties. I had some minor successes during the pandemic- but I finally began to feel comfortable calling myself a “dreamer” once I started to make real progress in my studies within the A.’.A.’. it was as I was completing my probationership that I met my first real dream guide
The Mistress of Shadows
I had been introduced to a dreaming technique taught by Skinner in Techniques of High Magic that involves imagining a bright blue vayu in the throat chakra. While I quickly saw signs of success (vibrations and lights) while performing this practice in the afternoons, I had my most startling results when I added this visualization into my sleep habits. I began to visualize the vayu as I drifted off to sleep at night. This would induce very vivid dreams, and within a couple weeks of this practice I found myself awake with sleep paralysis.
On my chest sat a dark figure. Anxiety began to creep up my gut. Instinctively I drew my sexual energy inwards and up my spine. The rushing heat from this energy destroyed the cold anxiety in my gut and poured into my heart and throat. I released a beam of rainbow light from my heart which destroyed the shadows from the shadowy figure revealing a beautiful winged woman. She was like a succubus from a comic book- dark hair and purple lips- and she smiled as she basked in the light from my heart. Then she faded out of sight with a giggle and I was awake. I was in shock from how vivid the experience was but I felt a rush of pride as I knew I had conquered the initial anxiety.
That woman would soon become my guide into the world of Dreaming. She would at first appear in my dreams and give me guidance on how to get better at my practice. When I practiced in the afternoons I could feel her hand on my shoulder as she whispered in my ear- telling me to relax, and gently guiding my attention to the correct points of focus to induce OBE.
She taught me to use my mornings for dreaming. I began to get up around 6 and spend an hour going back to sleep. The dreams I would have during these mornings began to develop a strong continuity which allowed me to become lucid frequently.
The Practice Today
Once I had developed the “feeling” for becoming lucid- it never went away. It’s like riding a bicycle. Most of my magic now happens in the etheric and astral planes during dreaming or full OBE. I can now easily slide out of my body within 30 minutes if I have a comfortable and quiet place to sit. It is so natural and easy to me now I sometimes wonder why I felt it was so hard to begin with.
I think I used to work too hard for it. The real secret is relaxing into it and simply allowing it to happen. When I would try earlier I was so focused on generating energy that I was breaking the delicate state needed to enter into the dream. It takes a slow and consistent energy that is developed from a daily practice over time- not a charge of manic energy spun up in the moment.
I think the guides prevented me from achieving success in dreaming too early too, for my own protection. I can see how if I could dream the way I do now when I was younger I might have lost myself. Become addicted to it and spent most of my time there. I have important work I need to do here, and it took me some time to accept that and develop the willingness to stay here even when I gained the ability to leave.
It is amazing though that by simply following in the steps of those who have traveled before me the way was cleared and my innate dreaming ability was unlocked. I can say with confidence that I am a Dreamer.
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