entering the world

So this whole project started as an experiment to accompany the video I was making on hypersigils. I kept getting stuck on the editing of the video though until I realized I needed to make the whole video a hypersigil in itself. Once I made the decision to turn the video into a hypersigil the pieces began falling into place and the video once again began to flow naturally and with ease. What makes a narrative? It has a protagonist that undergoes change. I am that protagonist in my own film but it wasn’t until I made it that I realized the change that I needed to undergo.

My whole life I have wanted so much to be seen, to be heard- and yet I have always secretly and deeply feared it. This is so obviously the block in the chain of desire for me and a perfect target for this hypersigil. Once I realized that it became easy. I became ready to be seen. As I wrote and edited the video I became more confident- more willing to take risks and to make mistakes. I no longer needed the video to be perfect, instead I was willing to make something and let it be seen.

I started taking more risks in my daily life- talking to strangers, saying yes to spontaneous plans, singing and sharing songs I was writing. At dunking donuts I was in line behind a beautiful goth girl and I asked her out with no hesitancy or fear!

All the weight and slowness of editing was lifted as the creativity flowed out of me no longer blocked by my stifling fear of being known.

And when I was done and the video was released it was a beautiful mess that I was so proud of- even with all its flaws. I still look back fondly on that video because it was truly the start of my new life.

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