Sliding In
I have been emailing back and forth with a young fan. He seems interested in magic and hungry for some sort of guidance or perhaps reassurance. He asks many questions and poses many theories about magical concepts. I try and answer as clearly as I can. I think it will be helpful for him to see that I am just like him- I don’t have any great secret knowledge- I just do the practices that other masters have done and I see similar results.
He asked about Rose though which I thought was funny and heart warming. He wrote
I’m sorry if this is too personal to comment on- but I am really envious of your relationship! You’re gf seems really cool, and the way you guys act together– its obvious you really love each other. And I think it’s cool how open you all are about your magic and sex practices… Like you’re living the dream- dating a girl like that. How did you all meet? Did you do magic to meet her? Be honest- bc she seems unreal!
I laughed when I read that. I did do magic to meet her I suppose. But it doesn’t feel like I just conjured her out of thin air- its more like she was on the other side of a mountain crest. A steep crest that I had been climbing up for what feels like my whole life. And whenever I did magic it was magic to make me stronger- to make me more supple and to hold fast to climb. And with every spell I would destroy a small fear or block and be able to climb just a little higher. With every ritual I grew just a little stronger and little more clear in my determination to mount the crest.
And then one day I simply decided I was ready and I stepped right up and over and into her arms- as if she too had climbing the same crest from the other side and it just took long enough for us to reach that particular peak that we could see each other in full for the first time. In that moment I was ready and she was ready and now we climb alongside each other.
So to answer his question- yeah I did do some magic to meet her. I had done some magic around becoming clear on who I was looking for, and some around becoming ready to meet her. I made an amulet that would act like a beacon to a person who could be that partner I was seeking- and I did internal work around becoming confident. And then I just talked to girls and when I thought they were cute I asked them out.
Rose was a longshot though- I followed her instagram for a while and she had a huge following even then so I never thought I would have had a chance with her- but I wanted to date a model and so I had been sliding into the DMs of models I liked- so when I saw her post a story about magical stuff I took it as a sign to reach out- but I was still shocked when she responded. I’m sure she got tons of dms a day- shes cool, and pretty and her body is out of this world and she makes gaming and cosplay content so shes getting hit with thirsty men all day.
But yeah, she said she was just drawn to me- like I was a character she had dreamed up. I could say the same for her. And when we discovered we shared compatible desires around D/s relationships and polyamory … It felt like we had found our pieces.
It wasn’t long until we moved across the country to be with each other and I’ve never been happier.
It feels like I finally found a part of myself I never knew was missing. I have grown so much with her- and I am in awe of her and her growth too- I am so excited to see the woman she will become. It feels like our life really has just begun!
#personal #love